Your Sexual Awakening Has (Almost) Nothing to Do with Sex...
No longer a stream of consciousness, more of me sharing what's on my mind with a bit of fiery passion behind it.
Over the past 3 years, I’ve been going through a bit of a sexual awakening…and before you just put this concept straight into the bucket of coitus, I want to interrupt that thought to sayyy:
What comes with a sexual awakening actually has little to do with actual sex (as we know it) and everything to do with waking up to this juicy, creative, raw, passionate, fiery, pleasurable, yummy sense of aliveness.
After all, it is THE ENERGY THAT CREATES LIFE!!!
So it would make sense that it’s also the energy that makes us feel the most alive…at least, to me that makes sense.
And yet,
It’s also the energy that we shut down and suppress and shame THE MOST.
It’s honestly tragic.
Imagine, for one second, what the world might look like if people felt more alive instead of walking around like robots in meat suits just running based on their programming (which are probably infected with hundreds of software viruses).
I imagine that there would be so much more joy and love and compassion in the world, because that simple feeling of being alive and able to feel pleasure is enough to give them fulfillment in this life. It is enough. That’s how fuckinggg powerful it is!
When you open up to this energy, your heart inevitably opens up with it. Which, in my experience and from listening and reading about other people’s experiences is:
life-changing
magical
paradigm-shifting
orgasmic
ego-exploding
eye-opening
inferno igniting
It brings with it, this feeling of “holy shit, why are more people not trying to FEEL THIS!?!?!?”
And in my head, I know why.
It’s because it took a lot of work to get here to this point where I have the space to let this energy move through my system.
It took days of me sobbing my eyes out until the salt from my tears made my eyes sting. It took tens of thousands of dollars investing in my healing. It took mustering the courage, time and time again to have really hard vulnerable conversations. It took confronting all of the lies I’ve been telling myself.
It took forgiving myself and other’s for all of the hurt I’ve caused and experienced. It took spending a lot of time feeling confused and afraid and doubtful and pissed off. It took a lot of stumbling and being triggered and questioning why I’m feeling triggered. It took having my perception of myself shattered. It took a lot of letting go and surrendering and trust - over and over and over and over again.
But now, through all of that digging and shedding and searching, I have touched into one of the most beautiful pieces of myself.
The piece that has an insatiable lust for life.
That feels alive by watching the wind blow through the trees. That giggles at herself. That loves to dance and spin in her socks on the hardwood floors. That can emanate love in it’s purest form. That can find the joy in the hardships. That sees the beauty in others because she recognizes the beauty in herself.
All of this is what sexual energy unlocks. Your connection to your sexuality is your connection to creativity and life itself.
And I hope you get to experience it one day.
Sending you love and blessings,
💋 Rachel 💋
YAAASSSSS